Monthly Archives: July 2011

So it seems….

In life there are times you pick your battles and times you have to bite your tongue, and while its seems that I have failed at this today, the truth is actually i have yet again played the part of punching bag. It seems most the times when i get upset and try to speak my mind that inevitably it will be reversed and i will be the one taking the lashing and bitting back a response this seems to be the response to most of the relationships in my life. I will cater, bend, help aid, try to make things easier for anyone involved in my life, yet still karma finds it necessary to kick me in the ass constantly. So anyways without going further or in to greater details and before any one assumes this is about them it more than likely is not i will sign off.. to the world tonight your on your own….

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quicky

so spent most the day working on another website in flash, man its been a little bit for flash and having to re learn AS II, anyways having some fun with it. Its nice to be on a project that’s different than what I’ve been working on.

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been a couple of days

Sorry its been a few days, been busy as all get out. I promis to get some more up soon, till then here is a logo i did for my aunt’s new company. I may post a larger image once its approved until then consider this a teaser. all done in illustrator.

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2 AM thoughts

Bless the open forum that is the porn filled halls of the world wide web for here I can babble on a in a non coherent and ungrammatical fashion about nonsense that doesn’t matter. It would seem that here words of countless artist, writers, philosophers, intellectuals, and hormone riddled teenagers ramble on into space spinning its neat tapestry of wasted time and energy. All this is a strange attempt to play doctor to our own emotional illness. Self medicated over worked and tapped of inspiration, here now back in the corners of having nothing better to do I find things floating to the surface again asking to be typed but never needing to.

Soooo warning stated the following statements are ramblings from my head and probably not worth a second glance stop reading now

I was discussing with a friend about the inability to look with in our own limits and I’ve come to the realization that we by our nature are hypocritical. For instances we are told to dream and think big and never hold back and go for gold, yet when we stumble or fall short we hear ah well you over stretched yourself, or you aimed to high. Is this evolution in a strange capitalist environment, is this just the next stage of development designed to thin the heard? Marxist would have us believe that it is simply everyone falling into their proper place in order for society to continue it takes all strokes and there for all should be regarded equal. However we do not follow that philosophy in this country. So really its just that I’m not suppose to be up top and my cog butt needs to get back in line cause I’m disrupting the machine. Well shit here i go cause well that is survival now. No longer a hunt and survive, but rather can you bend yourself and your ideals enough to fit in a common mold to survive. Can you make  yourself enough like what you want and what you need to keep on going.

So my fine audience ask yourself today what was worth the thought, what made you stop and think about something other than I’m hungry, I need to get home to watch Dexter, etc…  When things creep into your head are you able to shut them off, what causes it.  For me today I started to wonder about the connection of strangers and our spacial point. Ok in normal words at what point do we become weirded out by people. Its funny how even a completely public area we treat our space as a territorial issue.  Think I’m crazy go sit in the mall and watch, hell you can even pick out people’s personality’s how they treat there “bubble”. The over aggressive Alpha male and their need to peacock and bristle every time someone gets within a few feet, or the under esteemed kid who wont make eye contact and just moves through the crowd slipping by as quite as possible without notice. Maybe i notice to much or really just think about shit to much ehh who knows, but you want a fun experiment go out and break peoples bubbles without being overly aggressive or mean. Slide a little to close to someone don’t let the kid by, stare at someone for more than 10 seconds while walking by, don’t head nod to someone lol or don’t you might get shot. I didn’t tell you to do anything. Anyways that’s  it for me and my 2am blog that you shouldn’t of read cause really it was 10 mins of wastefulness.

PS sorry Ill put some non depressing non thinkin stuff up next time. Maybe

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So time for a new direction..

Pretty much decided today to go back to school for nursing. So after much job hunting with no luck and much soul searching and debating it seems im going back to a field i dabbled in a few years back. I always get told i should of gone into medicine because im constantly remembering first aid training and the biology i took from marine bio and guessing diagnosis correctly. So the lack of work coupled with the prodding of some loved ones and the parallel of a good friend doing the same thing heres to hoping it works out. Going down friday to talk to one of the schools, now i just hope i can get enough financial aid and help to compensate for not being able to find work while i go  back.

Squeeeeee!

Ok more skaven down heres a start of mock up of a unit 3 down. im playing with diffrent color schemes i was going with green and then realized that they would all start to look like plague monks( which will come later). so i also wish i had more time to do nmm techniques but 160 of just these clan rats is goin to be a bit to much for that. not bad for getting the process down to about 1.5 hours for 2 rats still need to get it faster. ok here you go. ohh great tut on rust techniques on gw’s skaven painting guide.

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and so i sit

Ok so i sit here browsing the internet cause well frankly i cant sleep and i cant do anything else. The little lady got job working at the but crack of dawn and bless her she needs sleep. So i sit in the dark bored with pandora pumping in one ear, and nothing to really say or do.

Video games have let me down this evening big surprise there, it funny how big of a void wow can leave when you finally get tired of it. I’ve wondered if maybe its a bad thing since it shows just how much time and effort was put into it. I say put in and not wasted because for i honestly believe people need to back off the idea that because its a game that its wrong to put so much effort in and thus call it a waste of time. It is first  a Social Network of people working together to accomplish similar goals and interest. I can also say for a year of my life when i was torn away from all my friends and hangouts it gave me people to be social with, since the town i was in was pretty much the snake pit hell hole of the world. But all said and done after 6 fun years i have hung up my plate mail and shield with my epics and mounts and decided that it was a good run, now what to do….

Anyways on a similar note it appears i may be changing directions in my life as work has become so hard to find it looks like at 30 i may be going back to school for a 180 in career paths.. could it be the artist, designer may in fact become a male nurse well it looks like it could happen stay tuned and thanks for listening.

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And as promised

ok as promised the first picks of the skaven mock up…. .and for quote of the night “no no that cheating bitch can pay for himself”

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Skaven under way

So did the first skaven tonight testing out skin tones, and color schemes for the basic troops. Decently happy with it now to figure out to how to speed it up a bit since ill have to do about 160 rank and file troops. Pics will come tomorrow.